The Wink is a labor of love, occasional source of ire and constantly influenced by the toddlywinks in my life- my daughters. There's also the HunkyWink. You'll read all about them as The Wink unfolds. Please feel free to wink back!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Fitness without sweat

We rejoined the YMCA over the weekend. I can honestly say right now that as I type this I am moaning. Oh, the nuanced pain of unused muscles. I am discovering expanses of self that hurt as never before, the cruelest part being the surprise as a movement draws a new ache. It's good, just makes everything from lifting my coffee mug to scaling the stairs a spectacle of "oohs" and jerks that make the girls throw back their heads with amused delight.

I'm not bent on writing about working out though, it's something else. It is using another set of muscles that has helped me rediscover the kind of high I get from overcoming the "I don't want to work out malaise" and actually making it to the gym, track or whatever and loving it. I visited my dusty, old pal Bloglines and pointed myself in some neglected, but beloved sites.

I popped over to the sites of old friends, collaborators, inspirations, models and amazing women. I read entry after entry, followed the trails of commenters to sites of people I have admired from afar and to others I hadn't known. Then I found my way to sites I should have been keeping on my radar.

It took time and had been something I'd been avoiding. The pressure to achieve traffic numbers, make comments, establish ties— it all became too much and something for which I was not feeling driven. Silly me, I'd forgotten how a 15 degree shift in perspective could make me pee my pants laughing, or that the musicality of another voice could bring me to tears and remind me of my blessings. I'd lost sight of the idea of belonging, forget "community" and other buzz words insinuating something more than place. Whether you are going about your day or turning the pages of a story, it comes down to how you feel.

My mom used to say, "It isn't that I don't like so and so, it's that I love seeing how this other person makes you light up." Have we all gotten so tied up in the numbers and rewards that we've forgotten the treasure of hearing a good yarn? Of nodding along as someone gives voice to something you've thought, but been afraid or unable to articulate?

I got my head out of my own way, and traveled to places that lifted my spirits, ignited my imagination and made me feel as if, "My god, I need to get back to living." When reading and commenting mimic life, when they are done in moderation, or according to appetite rather than dictate, they invigorate. So, go take a dip. Leave a comment, find inspiration, you'll be surprised how good it feels.




Blogger slouchy said...

i'm so glad for you. i've been discovering some new blogs as well -- and rediscovering some old.

November 17, 2009 9:42:00 AM PST

Blogger amanda said...

still here...

always inspired by your words and moments.

November 17, 2009 11:55:00 AM PST

Blogger amy turn sharp of doobleh-vay said...

i am here love! xoxoxoxo

November 17, 2009 1:10:00 PM PST

Blogger Jenn said...

Somehow, we are on some parallel path. I've been clicking through my Blogshelf, reminding myself of why I began to write in the first place.

Love back at you, love.

November 17, 2009 3:59:00 PM PST

Blogger Lara said...

Hooray for revisiting the blog lists! It was good to see you around again. :)

November 17, 2009 7:08:00 PM PST

Blogger Julia said...

"Silly me, I'd forgotten how a 15 degree shift in perspective could make me pee my pants laughing, or that the musicality of another voice could bring me to tears and remind me of my blessings."

And THIS is why I visit you.

You write so beautifully.

November 17, 2009 7:31:00 PM PST

Blogger Maggie, Dammit said...

Awesome, awesome, awesome, awesome post. Seriously awesome. I love you, dude.



November 18, 2009 6:26:00 AM PST

OpenID meglessard said...

I love to take an occasional afternoon clicking through a fellow writer's blogroll. I am always delighted to discover more amazing and witty bloggers, which is even more inspiration to write! And comment, too!

November 19, 2009 6:00:00 AM PST

OpenID thecheekofgod said...

I joined the gym myself recently, and when you mentioned sore muscles, I was all, "Amen, sister!" for I couldn't walk for two days after my first visit.

And then I kept reading . . .

It is a joy to traipse through my Reader, something I don't do often enough. I let the posts pile up and then loathe opening the window. And then, this very afternoon, I decided to throw it open and let in some fresh air. And there's this.

Thanks, my friend, for the reminder. And for all that you are . . .

November 20, 2009 12:35:00 PM PST

Blogger flutter said...

of all the gifts the I have been given in blogging, I count you right at the top

November 27, 2009 8:05:00 PM PST


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